Should I keep trying?

Carpenoctemgirl

I have a problem that people I know seem alittle to close to the situation to answer. My boyfriend and I have been in an unofficial sort of relationship for years but only recently decided to make it official to save others from the body count we can't help but leave around one another. We've loved each other for a long time, and now we really have each other for real. We should be up in the clouds. Unfortunately we've both been dealing with major issues as of late, Plus we are both alcoholics. I realized last year and have been in recovery ever since .He's struggling, and really down on himself as he's been dealing with this and other life issues for lots of years. There are times he actually says he gives up and tries to do unhealthy things just on the off chance they're unhealthy enough. He tells me he's no good for me and all I can see is that he's no good for himself, he's very proud and brilliant so I cant' really say much to help him that he'll listen to until he's really down emotionally. I can't let him go because I fell that theres a reason we're together, we do love each other, he's picked me up from lifes blows more than a few times, and if I let him go and something happens to him, I don't think I could forgive myself. I also must admit that I'm affraid to lose him which makes it impossible to put my foot down to much cause he might just walk away and be lost to any help. There are a number of successful and supportive people who I could have and who are more than interested in me, and I know some of you will tell me to go that direction, but I've made my bed, I still believe in my man, and I'm standing by to help make him shine. I'd really appreciate any input. Thanks so much. Sierra